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Long awaited entry

2005-04-12T21:13:00.000-07:00

yes yes.. i noe.. its b so long. my apologies.. its juz dat i've been so caught up in all the minor minor issues which i thought meant the world to me dat i sort of lost myself for a while. its now time to get in touch with my inner self once more by reflecting on these past few weeks..( or was it months?) hee~

well, if u're wondering, i did manage to return the swatch eventually but of coz i din tell him all that i haf planned to.. it was relli tough to sae anithing at all. i felt a sense of guilt as he's really not a very bad guy.. juz, not my cup of tea.. aniwae, after the val day episode came to an end, time passed realli quickly and the next thing i knew, i was bording the bus to jb with the SAJC bowling team. unfortunately, i caught a flu the moment i got there.. wonder why i alwaes fall ill during bowling trips. i din relli put in the effort to bond with my teammates and most of the time i was within my clique. so guys, i'm sorry...RELLI. well, although i was feeling guilty during the trip, there were enjoyable moments too..

after the o lvl results were out, i was quite disappointed coz 2 of my new found close frenz din do well enough to come back. though at that pt, i had barely known them for 2-3 months, they were alreadi very special to me.. dun ask mi y.. but they resembled my sec sch bez frienz.. loneliness in sch crept back once again.. since i entered jc, i have made alot of new frenz but most remained as acquaintance. i was onli closer to a significant few so they all meant alot to mi.. after 2 left, i thought that oh well, its ok.. its not the worst yet coz i still haf some close frenz left that can keep mi company in sch.. n yes, it had been so until now.. i haf no idea wad happened.. but there's this sudden n very obvious drift between 2 of my closer friends n i.. (closer.. at least dat was wad i personally percieved it to b) haiz.. is there a problem with mi? y??? oh man.. well, i guess things aren't very very very bad coz at least i still haf a close fren at sch.. whom i noe would b there for mi no matter wad. (:

well, wad were the minute minute issues that i thot were the world to mi? Nah, i'm not goin to elaborate on it coz its relli stupid.. but this is wad i have learnt: sometimes, when u feel that the whole world is crumbling down on u or when u suddenly feel so insignificant dat u think that u probably dun mean anithing to anione~ juz take a step back n think.. 10, 20 yrs down the road, when u look back and reflect upon this plight u r in right now n recall ur devastated spirit.. u'll probably b mocking at ur micro perspective of things then.. Coz when we look back, these things relli wouldn't matter that much. so juz take life ez.. n take comfort in knowing that wadeva that seems like the end of the world now would probably juz b a joke in future...

BE HAPPY~!

V day isn't 4 everyone...

2005-02-17T00:16:00.000-08:00

V day makes some gals look stupid.. and others cruel... Stupid coz they see this day as one when they collect their report cards on the number of guys they managed to allure throughout the past yr. This defeats the whole pupose of V dae as it soon turned into a popularity competition and the number of roses u receievesd soon became more impt than who u recieved it from. Thus some gals seem stupid... but of coz there are also real couples who truly lived this day in bliss and singles who wld simply go crazy coz the gal/guy of his/her dreams passed by and wished him/her happy val dae~ *how sweet rite?*

The cruel gals are those who just cannot lie yet dunno how to go abt telling the guy how she relli feels.. its V dae wad.. How could anyone reject another? Yet some guys dunnoe how to pick up minor minor hints. K... Now i'm in trouble... Zhenye gave mi a swatch~ i can't accept it, relli.. i wanna return it to him.. but how? i duwan to meet him. Holding on to the watch makes mi feel obligated to reply his msges which comes at like once per hr? even thruout the night? seriously, i'm dying. i hope some1 wld go with mi to return it. i haf to..V dae also caused much awkward feelings ... i have a feeling i'll lose some friends all thankz to v dae...i guess its juz not my yr..3 yrs ago was~ haha

Well, i guess V day's also a day to look around u and tell ur friends dat u relli treasure them. i made this mistake of assuming that my friends knew.. but truth is, since its v day and everyone around is exchanging gifts, its ez to leave some1 out accidentally and the feeling of lonliness amplifies. I'm sorry~ I do treasure u...

Yepz... dat's abt all for now..

2004-11-05T01:07:00.000-08:00

Todae.. was a bz n of coz tiring dae for mi. Rushed to sch at 12.30 for my overseas cip trip meeting. Had a short briefing and then went on to finish learning a malay dance~ this malay dance would be performed as an item over at a local sch in thailand as a form of cultural xchange. Quite cool hur.. Its was super demanding lahz.. coz we had to finish learning the whole dance in 2 short lessons! Then at 2.45, for the first time, we performed the dance in front of the rest of our cip grp. Obviously it was a mess without our instructor la~ by the wae, our instructor is a girl from the Malay culture society of our sch and she's kind enuff to take time to teach us this dance. Yapz.. after our rehersals.. we did some brainstorming for ideas for the activities we wanna carry out n gifts we wanna bring over for the orphans there. i heard that they're abt 5-6 yrs old onli and are mostly HIV positive.. There's this webby which u guys might wanna take a look: http://www.sarnelli.org
They're sooo poor thing! suddenly feel so lucky to b borned healthy.

At around 5pm, we had a team building kinda activity. It was very fun! my grp somehow lost all the rounds n the penalty was to b 'bombed'~ using water bomb of coz.. However~ when no one was lookin, the guys frm my grp actually stole a few waterbombs and hid. After the bombing session... which is when the winning grp has seized fire.. we crept up and retrieved our 'hidden treasure'. Then, i tricked the game master to come closer to mi n my grp, holdin the waterbomb on my left hand, i slammed it on her back! Hey wait.. but no.. no..it din burst! i was so malu that i was literally crouching on the floor trying to recover from my laughter! hahaz.. wad a dae...

hey peeps~

2004-11-04T00:15:00.000-08:00

hi all~ This is my first entry.. hmm.. holidaes r here aldreadi. SHLD b njoying. but hell no. Been down on luck these days. juz lost my hp n wallet on tues! n how.. coz.. coz.. hmm.. i left it in an empty 7eleven plastic bag on an empty bench. sounds like carelessness hur.. but i still prefer to blame it on my luck. so.. yah.. for the time being, call my home lo..

For todae, i had my pw op in the afternoon.. totally screwed up~ n it seems like all our hardwork had gone down the drain.. hey wait~ the word is "seems" arh.. i hope not lah~ "EXPECTING A MIRACLE" :)

Guess that's all for now..will b adding pics soon. so folks, do stay tuned~